I SUCK

WELL I SUCK blown every attempt to get back on track will i ever get there!!! I've gained 6 kg back after losing 23kg not happy ....i still exercise but the eating plan is shit have to make an effort i cant go back to being that size i just can't .i want to join weight watchers again but have to wait to get funds. i went well by myself for a few months then lost it.want to join the on line one this time as can't always make it to meetings....plus its half the cost.....my neck muscles are out and its peeing me off...makes exercise harder but still making myself do it as other wise id be heaps bigger......maybe now i have typed this down and got it out of my head i can move forward i hope so...well have to go take my new little Persian kitty to get her needle :( v8 molly and daughter

So i start again

Well time to start again haven't been great for a while now ....I'm still exercising although the food plan went out the window...and you need to do both....I'm going to join WW on line on Monday as hoping to have enough money after markets to do so i guess ill have to get better scales as mine aren't accurate and every gram helps ....I'm glad i have decided to do this as don't want to be where i was before i lost my weight......anyways have to go need a work out and then have to do some market sewing been slack with that too...cant believe its February Billie Joe turned 20 yesterday unbelievable how quick those 20 went LOL...... cheers

happy new year

It's NEW YEARS EVE I'm home alone Tony's band is playing up the road at the pub don't feel like going out .we decided to have a few beers tomorrow as tony doesn't drink when playing as its work so the beers are ready for tomorrow .I'm reading the Gabriel method again i really think he has the weight loss answers.just need to turn off the fat mode makes a lot of sense hope it works.
I'm finishing with weight watchers for now as too expensive at this time no cash flow. so I'm hoping to get the rest off myself as Ive been at this weight for months i have stabilized so think I'm ready to shed the rest.so planning on a total overhaul on my routine to shake it up I'm in a rut but that's good i have maintained that's not a bad thing i don't think.anyways happy new year cheers

merry xmas time

Well the festive season is nearly done yay .....i only had six beers yesterday and wasnt too bad food wise .....i got up and done a 45 minute leslie sansone workout....going out tonight tonys band is playing at the club so will get a little more exercise there lol ....was a different xmas day the girls both stayed here so they could wake up to christmas morning at home which was really nice they came to tonys mums for xmas lunch then went home to their place....after we visited my parents first ...dads had a bad lead up to chrissy he was in hospital for 10 days after collapsing while shopping he ended up with a pacemaker his 72 today glad he is still around HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD ....i was really stressed leading up to xmas i am so going to do everything different next year ...theres alot to say about planning ahead lol....i plan on dropping my last 8 kg over the next six months i have had to let my weight watchers go cant afford it at the moment im paid up til jan 22 2010 i havent been making it to meetings so seems a waist of money maybe i can do it on line as its cheaper ....ill see how the money pans out anyway merry christmas.

Been slack with blogging

RIP CINDY MISS YOU

MY GOD ITS BEEN FOREVER SINCE I HAVE BEEN ON HERE ....have been busy working and doing life.......been struggling of late to stay focused on me and my weight loss journey.......went back to my meeting last week after five weeks away.....a gain of 700gms which wasnt too bad considering i got ttotm that night and had boobs that felt more like rocks they were that heavey.....the scales were good to me at home when i got on them on sunday night before i drank my beers after a long week of sewing til 1 am every night and doing my market on sunday that i was up at 4.30am for..... it was a hot long day all i could think about were those cold vb in my fridge...lol....if i gain sobe it i had the points saved for them.....i tend to retain fluid after a drink so itll go again.....i have hives im scrating like a dog with fleas going to get something for them today as if i exercise they heat up and drive me nutts......anyways im back at this weight loss journey taking way longer than it should but still plodding along thats the main thing ....


I LOST A GREAT FRIEND friend from school days she was a funny girl made you laugh big time she died suddenly got a blood clot in her leg sad sad loss made me think about alot of things i want to change about myself as im only here once and not that long ......miss and luv you CINDY XXXX cheers

LOST 300gms

well the 300gms i put on last week came off this week ....i hope i m not at that point where you gain and lose the same amount from week to week .....will be shaking it up a bit so that doesn't happen that's for sure....went to Sydney yesterday and bought a lot of fabrics so i have a good supply to cut out my dolls clothes and as i have some orders will get to it over Easter so i don't get behind again ......happy Easter cheers

GAINED 300gms

Gained this week 300grams ....not really concerned as ttotm was here....it ll be gone next weigh in .....have been really busy this last few weeks....have my market on Sunday and not a lot of work done for it as been doing the other sewing for the shop.....so boring....hems shortening sleeves button and button holes oh joy lol....made a few christening sets for orders and some for markets as well as party dresses so have done something other than eat right and exercise.....i can see Ive lost a lot of weight got my second comment in a few days about how much Ive lost a lot of people don't seem to want to acknowledge that Ive lost so much i definitely don't look fat any more yay.....its all been worth it to get to this point that i can actually touch my own skin without crawling inside out i hated myself that much .....i look in the mirror now and i can see me looking back that's something haven't been able to do for a long time .....years in fact.....i cant believe I'm happy about my weight I'm by know means at goal but i can truly see me getting on the scales and yahooing I'm at goal i vision it every day....see it believe it.....cheers