why did that happen?????????

i just dont get why my nephew 's  little 18 month old girl was allowed to drown ....wrong on all levels WRONG   !!!!! ;(....i just can't stop thinking about this little family....just so sad

true

 

The mind is everything. What you think you become.
- Buddha

time to get back to my work

Bobbie and Billie my babies

I 've been having a wow of a time hanging on line but i really need to step back and put a little focus into my work this week so will limit my time on rapid loss site for commenting I'm starting to feel like a stalker i am on there so much lol....but i do luv the commitment and support of all the peeps there....really does make a difference...helps me stay focused so see how i go ....will get on to comment a little less every day....I'm trying not to let the fact i have only lost small numbers compared to everyone else get to me and i know that will stuff my confidence up.... i really do look like i have lost more so will focus on that not the scale....the scales are always my undoing haven't weighed today trying to break the daily habit is hard....my baby girl comes home from the gold coast today excited to see her she got home sick while away lol...luv my babies funny bitches ....they are my everything :)

week 4 weigh in

Another 700gms bites the dust that's 4.1kg in 4 weeks...I'm cruising along great at the moment exercising and following stage 1 menu it's got easier and easier....i am still waiting for a big drop on the scales like everyone else is getting but wont let that get to me i can see the difference in the mirror and so can my mum and hubby that's enough for me for now lol....i have gone from a firm size 18 jeans to my 16's i wore them out shopping yesterday felt bloody good.... didn't feel like the fat one waddling down the iles..... there was a little spring in my step as i went through the fresh veges :) 2 more size to get back to were i was when turned 50 after my last weight loss attempt with weight watchers.....i never made it to goal but i felt normal....
I'm excited to feel so committed i actually thought i wouldn't get through the first week before i started I AM SO GLAD I DID :))) week 4 down of the challenge wasn't thinking about the contest until this week read an old post on the forum i started to think why cant i think maybe i could get into the finals i dont think i can win but i could maybe be up there with the others was a little exciting to think about ....i have seen some of the others photos they look freakin awesome think i can pic the winners so far will wait and see well deserved all of them they have done fantastic hope i look half as good ill be stoked....i have the worst bingo wings ever i have arms like my mum hers never went back into shape she is 71 I'm 51 she says i may still get them toned ....i use to do weights in my younger days so when i am at goal will fill out the floppy skin with muscle is what i always say ....well i am doing it this time yes sir bye bye bingo wings....im pumped for my next weigh in i keep waiting for the big one maybe it's this next week lol cheers x

week 3 doing Rapid loss

well today marks 3 weeks since i started rapid loss weigh in found 900gms leave me yay pretty sure it was more ....scales keep sucking the life out of the batteries so getting new ones i look much better in the face my clothes are loose that bloated feeling is gone  i feel so much happier in just 3 weeks ...I'm on fire lol.....i also can't believe i won the weekly prize on the forum boards $500 worth of rapid loss and nude by nature products i almost fell off my chair when i read my user name had to check my user name just to make sure i can't believe they pick me i can't describe how happy it made me feel and still does....i don't have a lot of cash to just go buy stuff so i have to budget in my containers of shakes etc so now i have 3 coming in the pack i can get some cash away for the next lot so i have absolutely no excuses to fail i just feel so dam good i don't want to sabotage myself anyway.....I'm not having huge losses but they are losses and i can feel and see the differences a small loss use to make me want to just chuck it all in but not this time i feel different I'm looking at it all different....i entered the competition with the thought i know i wont win but what the heck I'm doing it anyways so entered that tragic photo i am working really hard to make sure the next photo looks like someone else because that fatty was sad and bloated looking i was so negative about myself it wasn't funny ...I'm coming alive again little by little feels so dam good to take control of my life and feelings again and in just 3 short weeks can't imagine how i will feel when i reach goal....my journey has just started i can thank Ray  Amal the RL team and all the other members on the rapid loss forum plus kazza a friend and also a friend of last years winner Nichole  who has been doing it for a while now and dropped over 40kg she is really supportive too...she also looks amazing i am proud of her ....so 3 weeks down and 3.4kg gone and dusted yay

weight not moving

OK i know i am not suppose to weigh every day but  bad habits die hard ....I'm not use to seeing like a platue in the 1st few Weeks of a diet especially when i have stuck to menu to a letter and exercised every day where i puff and sweat .....ion WW i drop good numbers til i lose momentum then platue out and start gaining weight back....i started rapid loss as have heard so much good feedback about how fast you drop the kg's if follow the plan to the letter .....i need to see scale numbers that's what motivates me i think i might get a big surprise and drop a kg or 2 but it never happens lol think this weigh in is going to be a dud too....trying not to weigh every morning but fail most days surely its got to drop soon and i know i look thinner....has to be fluid or muscle build up surely the numbers have to drop soon.....will continue.... i have to have a better photo in 16 weeks to put next to that dreaded before photo my aim is to be 16 kg lighter in 16 weeks i know i have no chance of winning contest but as was starting challenge thought what the heck....may as well be in it.....

week 2 weigh in 2

well a little disappointed as only lost 100gms ...but i am proud of my  progress in the fact i have stuck with the rapid loss program to a tee including doing my exercise every day actually putting everything in to it feels good....got TTOTM 5 days late so my big guess is i have fluid so cheated me my full loss....but next week they will be gone and so will the fluid so by keeping up momentum i should have a really good loss I'm hoping at least 1.9 kg....as i figure i should be losing at least 1kg a week at this pace so here's to a good loss next week...i found i am not as hungry now .....except when I'm sewing i had a few times i felt hungry then realised the time and i was like an hour past my snack or lunch lol that hasn't happened in a long time....and it's kinda good to feel hungry forgot the feeling lol anyways will continue this week and follow week one again i feel proud and it was nice to hear my hubby say he's proud too i can feel and even see the difference in just 2 weeks i have a neck again ...i don't look so much like a little Buddha or teletubbie yay so today i weigh 78.3kg so far 2.5kg down in 2 weeks :)