A change Needs To Take place In My MInd Body & Soul

A CHANGE NEEDS TO HAPPEN IN MY MIND BODY AND SOUL........................i wear black i think black i am black im hiding away............i want out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i tried on a shirt that fitted last year a white dressy shirt with a collar 3/4 sleeves was tight.....i bought it to go with my black jeans and black leather vest for a wedding..... the colour looked so different on me i put a pink singlet top over it i still had my grey t shirt pj pants on omg i haven't wore anything but black for so long it looked weird in a strange kind of way ............if everything wasn't so tight i would actually like to wear it out......i want colour back in my life blue pink mauve yes yes yes.....i have been thinking the only times i have ever gotten anywhere near goal weight i stopped drinking alcohol completely and gave the weight loss exercise plan my 110% effort .....I'm on a no way win track on plan off plan on plan off plan yo yo plan i guess you would say........i want to say that I'm going to go on the ww pro points plan for the last time and get to goal and never ever look back but i have said it so many many many times its like even i don't believe it any more today when i tried those clothes on and looked into the mirror that i looked in 20 years ago when i was a petite size 10 i was horrified but something in my heart said you can be that again you just have to do it ...NO MORE EXCUSES!!!....... so i know i can do it whats stopping me????...ITS ME....i have to go about doing this weight loss thing completely different this time.... I'm off to do some sewing and give it some thought a lot of thought mmm i want that switch in my head to turn on because when it dose i know there is no stopping me it has come on and flick off so many times lately i want it on and stay on for good!