HEADING TOWARD GOAL

Friday, February 22, 2013

me at 80.8kg :(

starting weight for 16 week Rapid Loss challenge 80.8kg

i hate this photo  i had it taken same day as newspaper shot for Rapid Loss Challenge without the paper and more side on i look sad and i was....i always thought these photos were set up to sell products thought people puffed em selves out to look bigger but guess what they don't ...this photo was a reality check for me...i never where singlets or anything this revealing i always cover up t shirts to or past the elbow  always jeans and a vest whenever i leave the house...at home tracky type pj pants and big t shirt ....i locked the bathroom door in case hubby gets to see how massive i was ....hoping to change my wardrobe for the first time in years for next summer.....don't get me wrong i luv my jeans and will always wear them but the occasional dress in summer would be great and singlet tops oh how i have missed you....i have been wanting to take a picture of me now to see the difference but decided to wait just looking in the mirror at body bits that have shrunk is good enough for now...I'm excited to think I'm going to be at goal this year i know i am i can feel it ....feels fantastic bring on weigh in day :)

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

i liked this

Your body is the baggage you must carry through life. The more excess the baggage, the shorter the trip.
Arnold H. Glasgow

Monday, February 18, 2013

whoot whoot week five down and another loss

whoot whoot a loss of 1.2kg this week awesome feeling....i finally got my good loss i have been waiting for ....that makes 5.3kg in 5 weeks I'm over the moon i went down a size in jeans and now those jeans are becoming lose on me not like i am ready for next size yet but wont take long now....i can't believe the difference in my appearance.....i look much more like me...not that i am beautiful but i didn't like the bloated Buddha look and my chunky arms are shrinking probably have floppy arms but as long as they are skinny i don't care i can build them out with muscle using weights so i am  thinking ahead about how to fix any negatives.....i have hated my arms for years i wear t shirts with sleeves past the elbow bloody hot in summer so would luv to be able to wear singlet tops in summer next year like i did in my teens and 20 s ....wont talk about the hail damaged legs leave that one for another day lol
 all in all i am proud of myself and what i have achieved in a short 5 weeks so many inspiring people on the forum its like wow.... look how much they are changing..i am not good with words so i cant put it across like they do but i know i am changing a lot especially with the mind set it feels bloody awesome....i can not believe a shake can help you this much no hunger no shaking no feeling sick happy happy happy

this made me teary found it on facebook

The Little Boy Who Was Left Alone
I was walking around in a supermarket when i saw a cashier hand this little boy his money back, the boy couldn’t have been more than 5 or 6 years old. The Cashier said, ‘I’m sorry, but you don’t have enough money to buy this doll.” The little boy turned to the old woman next to him, ”Granny, are you sure I don’t have enough money?” She replied, ”You know that you don’t have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.”

Then she asked him to stay there for just 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly. The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand. Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to. ‘It’s the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for Christmas.

She was sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.’ I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus would bring it to her after all, and not to worry. But he replied to me sadly. ‘No, Santa Claus can’t bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.’ His eyes were so sad while saying this, ‘My Sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister.”
My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said, ‘I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.’ Then he showed me a very nice photo of himself. He was laughing. He then told me ‘I want mommy to take my picture with her so she won’t forget me.’ ‘I love my mommy and I wish she didn’t have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.’ Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly. I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. ‘Suppose we check again, just in case you do have enough money for the doll!” OK’ he said, ‘I hope I do have enough.’ I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it.

There was enough for the doll and even some spare money. The little boy said, ‘Thank you God for giving me enough money!’ Then he looked at me and added, ‘I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so that mommy could give it to my sister. He heard me!” ‘I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn’t dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and a white rose.” ‘My mommy loves white roses.’ A few minutes later, the old lady returned and I left with my basket. I finished my shopping in a totally different state of mind from when I started. I couldn’t get the little boy out of my mind. Then I remembered a local newspaper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a young woman and a little girl. The little girl died right away and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-sustaining machine because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma. Was this the family of the little boy? Two days after this encounter with the little boy I read in the newspaper that the young woman had passed away.
I couldn’t stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was for people to see and make last wishes before her burial. She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed forever. The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine, and in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him.
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