the struggle goes on

 i am still struggling to gain  control of my inner self....why is it so hard ?i am either in total control or completely out of control....at the moment im in both worlds....i gave up my ww subscription as the money is an issue here at the moment....im still using the community i really only lost my tracker i can use a pen and book for that....so far not writing everything down but wasnt using tracker on line either ....that usually happens when i dont want to be true to my plan its my self sabbotage stage....i seem to want to be fat ....that is my body does.... my mind wants to be slim now to get the mind and body to agree on the be thin idea...gabriel method does seem to have the right idea.....