this made me teary found it on facebook

The Little Boy Who Was Left Alone
I was walking around in a supermarket when i saw a cashier hand this little boy his money back, the boy couldn’t have been more than 5 or 6 years old. The Cashier said, ‘I’m sorry, but you don’t have enough money to buy this doll.” The little boy turned to the old woman next to him, ”Granny, are you sure I don’t have enough money?” She replied, ”You know that you don’t have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.”

Then she asked him to stay there for just 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly. The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand. Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to. ‘It’s the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for Christmas.
She was sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.’ I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus would bring it to her after all, and not to worry. But he replied to me sadly. ‘No, Santa Claus can’t bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.’ His eyes were so sad while saying this, ‘My Sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister.”
My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said, ‘I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.’ Then he showed me a very nice photo of himself. He was laughing. He then told me ‘I want mommy to take my picture with her so she won’t forget me.’ ‘I love my mommy and I wish she didn’t have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.’ Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly. I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. ‘Suppose we check again, just in case you do have enough money for the doll!” OK’ he said, ‘I hope I do have enough.’ I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it.

There was enough for the doll and even some spare money. The little boy said, ‘Thank you God for giving me enough money!’ Then he looked at me and added, ‘I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so that mommy could give it to my sister. He heard me!” ‘I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn’t dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and a white rose.” ‘My mommy loves white roses.’ A few minutes later, the old lady returned and I left with my basket. I finished my shopping in a totally different state of mind from when I started. I couldn’t get the little boy out of my mind. Then I remembered a local newspaper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a young woman and a little girl. The little girl died right away and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-sustaining machine because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma. Was this the family of the little boy? Two days after this encounter with the little boy I read in the newspaper that the young woman had passed away.
I couldn’t stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was for people to see and make last wishes before her burial. She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed forever. The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine, and in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him.
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why did that happen?????????

i just dont get why my nephew 's  little 18 month old girl was allowed to drown ....wrong on all levels WRONG   !!!!! ;(....i just can't stop thinking about this little family....just so sad

true

 

The mind is everything. What you think you become.
- Buddha

time to get back to my work

Bobbie and Billie my babies

I 've been having a wow of a time hanging on line but i really need to step back and put a little focus into my work this week so will limit my time on rapid loss site for commenting I'm starting to feel like a stalker i am on there so much lol....but i do luv the commitment and support of all the peeps there....really does make a difference...helps me stay focused so see how i go ....will get on to comment a little less every day....I'm trying not to let the fact i have only lost small numbers compared to everyone else get to me and i know that will stuff my confidence up.... i really do look like i have lost more so will focus on that not the scale....the scales are always my undoing haven't weighed today trying to break the daily habit is hard....my baby girl comes home from the gold coast today excited to see her she got home sick while away lol...luv my babies funny bitches ....they are my everything :)

week 4 weigh in

Another 700gms bites the dust that's 4.1kg in 4 weeks...I'm cruising along great at the moment exercising and following stage 1 menu it's got easier and easier....i am still waiting for a big drop on the scales like everyone else is getting but wont let that get to me i can see the difference in the mirror and so can my mum and hubby that's enough for me for now lol....i have gone from a firm size 18 jeans to my 16's i wore them out shopping yesterday felt bloody good.... didn't feel like the fat one waddling down the iles..... there was a little spring in my step as i went through the fresh veges :) 2 more size to get back to were i was when turned 50 after my last weight loss attempt with weight watchers.....i never made it to goal but i felt normal....
I'm excited to feel so committed i actually thought i wouldn't get through the first week before i started I AM SO GLAD I DID :))) week 4 down of the challenge wasn't thinking about the contest until this week read an old post on the forum i started to think why cant i think maybe i could get into the finals i dont think i can win but i could maybe be up there with the others was a little exciting to think about ....i have seen some of the others photos they look freakin awesome think i can pic the winners so far will wait and see well deserved all of them they have done fantastic hope i look half as good ill be stoked....i have the worst bingo wings ever i have arms like my mum hers never went back into shape she is 71 I'm 51 she says i may still get them toned ....i use to do weights in my younger days so when i am at goal will fill out the floppy skin with muscle is what i always say ....well i am doing it this time yes sir bye bye bingo wings....im pumped for my next weigh in i keep waiting for the big one maybe it's this next week lol cheers x

week 3 doing Rapid loss

well today marks 3 weeks since i started rapid loss weigh in found 900gms leave me yay pretty sure it was more ....scales keep sucking the life out of the batteries so getting new ones i look much better in the face my clothes are loose that bloated feeling is gone  i feel so much happier in just 3 weeks ...I'm on fire lol.....i also can't believe i won the weekly prize on the forum boards $500 worth of rapid loss and nude by nature products i almost fell off my chair when i read my user name had to check my user name just to make sure i can't believe they pick me i can't describe how happy it made me feel and still does....i don't have a lot of cash to just go buy stuff so i have to budget in my containers of shakes etc so now i have 3 coming in the pack i can get some cash away for the next lot so i have absolutely no excuses to fail i just feel so dam good i don't want to sabotage myself anyway.....I'm not having huge losses but they are losses and i can feel and see the differences a small loss use to make me want to just chuck it all in but not this time i feel different I'm looking at it all different....i entered the competition with the thought i know i wont win but what the heck I'm doing it anyways so entered that tragic photo i am working really hard to make sure the next photo looks like someone else because that fatty was sad and bloated looking i was so negative about myself it wasn't funny ...I'm coming alive again little by little feels so dam good to take control of my life and feelings again and in just 3 short weeks can't imagine how i will feel when i reach goal....my journey has just started i can thank Ray  Amal the RL team and all the other members on the rapid loss forum plus kazza a friend and also a friend of last years winner Nichole  who has been doing it for a while now and dropped over 40kg she is really supportive too...she also looks amazing i am proud of her ....so 3 weeks down and 3.4kg gone and dusted yay

weight not moving

OK i know i am not suppose to weigh every day but  bad habits die hard ....I'm not use to seeing like a platue in the 1st few Weeks of a diet especially when i have stuck to menu to a letter and exercised every day where i puff and sweat .....ion WW i drop good numbers til i lose momentum then platue out and start gaining weight back....i started rapid loss as have heard so much good feedback about how fast you drop the kg's if follow the plan to the letter .....i need to see scale numbers that's what motivates me i think i might get a big surprise and drop a kg or 2 but it never happens lol think this weigh in is going to be a dud too....trying not to weigh every morning but fail most days surely its got to drop soon and i know i look thinner....has to be fluid or muscle build up surely the numbers have to drop soon.....will continue.... i have to have a better photo in 16 weeks to put next to that dreaded before photo my aim is to be 16 kg lighter in 16 weeks i know i have no chance of winning contest but as was starting challenge thought what the heck....may as well be in it.....